A woman came up to me after a meeting and gave me what seemed to me to be a very long hug. So long that I pulled away a little twice but her embrace seemed so strongly intended that I ended up staying there.
Why did I try to pull away? I’m not sure. I believe I’m just not accustomed to long hugs anymore. The only long hugs I knew anything about were very romantic long hugs full of energy that combined a deep longing for something way beyond the womb with a familiarity I felt for someone I could best describe as my best friend. At least those hugs are the ones I remember best.
This person though, the woman after the meeting, I hardly know, unless in the great-distant past. As I grow older, I sometimes wonder how far in the past great-distant has to be, and still be in this lifetime.
Anyway later, when I was going home, I wanted to tell that person how much I appreciated that hug.
It caught me by surprise!
I wanted to ask, “What did it mean?”
Was it true love calling to me?
And I didn’t recognize it? Wasn’t open to it?
Now I don’t usually use that pair of words: True Love.
I didn’t think I believed in True Love, except in the universal sense that our True nature is Love. Our Love is our Truth. Our Truth is Our Love.
I believe that.
What I didn’t think I believed was that there was an exclusive, specific True Love that exists for every one. You know, that myth that we are all searching for our one true love and the greatest joy in life is to find our One True Love and live happily ever after.
I didn’t think I believed in that myth. I still don’t know if I believe in it. But I do know now that I have that myth inside of me.
And that hug somehow made me realize that it’s there and has been there for who knows how long. I wonder how many of us have that myth in us and really still believe in it even though our experiences have hidden it and made it too hard to believe. Do I pretend to not believe it, and still inside all the time I am still looking for my one true love?
My myth of True Love is that there is a perfect person for me that is the perfect fit designed by God and that if I follow Divine Will perfectly I will find that perfect fit with someone and live happily ever after with that person with white and golden Light surrounding us and permeating within us together forever.
And I’m not kidding, now that I see the myth within me it feels so good to look at this vision (and it really is a feeling of great longing, great anticipation and great joy) that I want it to be true.
That is my myth of true love that I carry within me.
This experience has left me wondering about what other myths are floating around inside me that I’m still not very aware of. And about where they came from. I thought I knew. Mom. Dad. Movies. TV. etc.
Now I’m beginning to wonder if I brought them with me and created a whole reality just to bring them to consciousness and deal with them.
Do you have a myth of True Love inside of you? Do you think it is a myth? Maybe it’s just a part of being human and everyone has it. What do you think and feel about it? Also what do you intuit about it?
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
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